Taken in four

I took all these photos with my new lomo camera, the actionsampler.

For Important people

I did my laundry two three maybe four weeks ago.
I put my teddy bear Park in there with everything when I did it.
Park is clean now, but something is different.
What can it be?
Memories washed away into sewers and locked in computer files.
Digital Photographs, pixels that capture short spaces of time.
I never finished my painting,
I never thought Park looked dirty,
I never thought Park smelled dirty,
I was just a silly little girl in a dorm, after all.



Bathtub IV from Keith Loutit on Vimeo.

Nuyorican Poets Cafe

The Cafe is the most integrated place on the planet Allen Ginsberg
Reading on 04.24.09


"Don't have a seizure, you'll ruin her birthday" he told me.
I feel like I have chained feet even though
I know my about my free soul.
Whenever you tell me these words that make up these sentences that just hurt my soul,
I feel closer to the earth than I have ever been.
all I want to do is fly,
like those birds in Brooklyn,
the seagulls that fly in Bed-sty
and even though I don't know why they fly there,
I want to ride a bike,
just like those wings in Bed-sty;
and if I fall from my bike,
I still know my seizures will go away,
and the sky will always, always, always
be here
for me.

New ideas & design

This light design is based on the concept of pouring, pouring, pouring medicine into my body but never knowing the amounts or side effects of any medicine. Avoiding the knowledge of what it can do, yet seeing how much medicine I have taken is the main idea. Almost all the bottles have real swarovski crystals on them; as a reference of youth, adolescence and spirit. Both medicine and age are pieces of my character that I cannot prevent.
I have collected over eighty med. bottles and caps, and am still figuring out the design path for this project. I'm excited to see how this will finish.

Thanks to Geo who helped me with construction alot!

Running Fence 1972-76

Christo and Jeanne-Claude

"A dream you dream alone is only a dream.
A dream you dream together is reality." -Yoko Ono

Just listen

Brave New Voices: Alysia
by HBOclips

"I definitely think my generation is not what people think. They don't give us enough credit. Everyone I know is politically involved or has an opinion about what's going on. People really want change, really want something different to happen. For me, spoken word is really essential to that." -Alysia Harris



Josh, a verbal alchemist, is a 19-year-old junior at the University of Pennsylvania and a unique figure in the youth slam community.




Jasmine Bailey "Because every last person who judge me aint even remotely close to relating"

Getting used to grey.

These shadows are getting longer.
While the birds are dancing in some synchronized pattern,
The shadows are also turning stronger.
Tonight will be a perfect shade of dark blue.
I can sit here from my window and still find your old corner,
I remember the birds, it was as if they were pointing towards it,
all along.

why don't you go have fun?

" I'd rather be here watching you paint and hearing you cry" he told me.

RE: Caves

I woke up early this morning to finish my painting, clear my mind. I haven't seen my roommate in days, since she's preparing for her sculpture show on Monday; I begin talking to her about how sometimes I just don't understand people. I've been thinking about that too, she says, and you know what it is! What Emilie tell me! I respond. Some people are just more alive than others. How will they, or we grow? I ask. Put themselves in uncomfortable conditions and learn from that, live also, as much and as far as you can see.


Jack's Mannequin -Caves

"I'm caught
Somewhere in between
Alive
And living a dream.
No peace
Just clicking machines
In the quiet of compassion.
The walls caved in on me.

And she sings
My bird dressed in white.
And she stings
My arm in the night.
I lay still
Still I'm ready to fight.
Have my lungs
But you can't take my sight.
The walls caved in
Tonight.

The walls are caving in
As far as I can see
The walls are caving in
The doors got locked for sure
There's no one here but me

And what if we were married forever?
Like the past never happened
And time did not exist for us at all
I still think we'd still be traveling together
Through all kinds of weather
Everything's a piece of everyone"

Oye, have fun Saturday, el once de Abril. Ahora lo siento realmente.
Has lo que quieras, he terminado con usted.

Let's go swing in the park.

The squirrels are eating pizza on the grass today.
People on the street are playing games,
kids are drawing with chalk on the sidewalks,
and everyone is riding their bikes.
Enjoying what finally looks like spring.
Deep in Brooklyn I bump into my roommate, heading to glassblow in downtown
I see a man buying a gallon of water and garlic
and I get my tooth's cavity filled.
Beautiful days create productive ideas, I would say.

why did i do that.

ahhhhh!
i'm so stupid!
no more.
i swear.

you would rather walk away.

collage- I knew 'New Mexico'

collage- 'I knew me'

collage- Missouri

NEXT.

4.3.2009

" I don't trust the world anymore"
-Aldrin

" I am not a weak woman"
-Elena

" We make a nice triangle, triangles are the strongest shapes"
-Mariam

" I laugh when I don't know how to deal with things"
-Mariam

" The saddest thing is when you smile but don't mean to; just like a front"
-Mariam

" I'm so tired of talking about men, I'm so tired. I have two very intelligent friends and all they do is talk about men."
-Fran

" How could you know happiness if you have never been sad?"
-Eduardo

Farther

"Vague sound of rain
pierces through my song again
but I get distracted by the way his toes move when he plays
so I let it burn

I just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water
And call him up for more

And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

He said I'm sorry"

Maria Mena

Visiting time is from 9am-5am

I want to thank everyone who made the effort and came all the way up to Weill-Cornell to see me when I was there, my entire spring break. It's important because of how far it really is, and how happy your company made me. I'm just so grateful to have you in my life. It was so sweet when people read books with me, and worked in my sketchbook, especially Fran who made a movie with me.

An entire week is a long time to be in a hospital, attached to a bed. So thanks again- Fran, Topu, Emilie, Mariam, Geo, Andrew, Garette, Chris, and of course Queen Kim.

sketches with Geo

finger painting with Emilie and Chris

Music and Mermaids with Topu and Mariam
"Technologically enhanced"


Trying to learn how music works with expert: Topu

Me-my window view in Watercolor

Me-drawing Topu in ink/pen

Topu's hot mess in Charcoal
lol

Me- drawing Topu in watercolor and pen

Topu's watercolor and charcoal piece

Me- My foot sketch in bed

Fran marker drawing "To be honest" one of her quoteable quotes

Me- Final watercolor foot sketch in bed.